Result are up and I didn't get in to university.
Never feel like such a failure. Everyone got in. Everyone is so happy. Moving on and I'm stuck.
I feel like shit for feeling like shit.
Because I have the perfect boyfriend that has been so fucking supportive.
But I just can't stop feeling like this.
And then I think even if I get in (I have the second phase to try to get in) I will be all alone. I can't breathe just thinking about it!
Worst it's getting to me because of everything! I got nervous just because he told me he was spending the night at his friend's house! C'mon! I felt like crying just because of that! It's not fucking normal!
And I just feel stupid and worthless and a fucking waste!
He is just so perfect!
Had our first time today! It was so perfect! Fun and hot and perfect! Everything I hoped for and more.
And he doesn't deserve this! Not someone that is crying the night they first did it. He deserves better. So much better. Someone who is smart enough to get into fucking university and doesn't freak out just because she won't talk to him for a few hours or because of being alone in university!
He makes so fucking happy. Happier that I have been in a while. At the same time never felt like such a loser